Sunday, May 27, 2012

Mary & John Reeve Letters, No 2.

Hinckley, Utah April (no date - but likely sometime in early April, after conference)

Miss Mary Lyman
            Provo, Utah

My Dear Friend,

Some are born writers, some achieve the distinction and since I belong to neither class you will not expect much of a letter from me. However, I will do the best I can in the hope that I may get one of your lengthy letters. Yet I would like very much to give shape to some of the thoughts that are absorbing the attention of my mind and heart.

Before we arrived home, I became confidential with Pres. Hinckley, and told him a great many things that passed between us. And from my interpretation, he seemed to think our affair was developing nicely. I related to him how beautifully and skillfully you taught that young couple a lesson on prayer, which pleased him very much.

The more I think of my dream, the more I am impressed with its deep significance, and the more I am convinced of its coming from a divine source and of its being a final and definite answer to our petition. So in view of its sacred importance, and its decisive impressiveness I must seize this chance to reiterate and reemphasize the expressions my heart are so anxious to make to you. The thoughts of your soul, so pure and sweet, makes me falter at your feet, Makes my happiness complete. Oh! How vividly I recall the picture of your magnificent eyes as we fondly stood together at parting at our last evening together! Such an entrancingly sweet expression! Such a deep and brilliant light shone out from the depths of a soul purified by the presence of Divinity that my soul went out to you in the tenderest affection. I want to make you happy. I want to devote my life’s service to your happiness. I want to love you with all my heart. I do love you, tenderly, sweetly, fervently, and dearly. Can you reciprocate my love for you? Our lives shall flow silently sweetly down the stream of life until it reaches the blissful ocean of life’s eternal happiness. Let me say unto you my dear Mary, will you be my sweetheart, my companion my love, my wife, forever and forever?

If, dear, you can say yes to this appeal prompted by the Spirit of God, it will mean your happiness as well as mine, and I feel sure that by the time this reaches you, your heart will be prepared to answer definitely and positively. And the quicker we know what the answer is the sooner we can adjust our life to the results, and the better it will be for us both. But I sincerely hope that it shall be the great purpose of the Almighty that your feelings shall be impressed to respond to my own feelings.

I am sure you know how intensely anxious I shall await the answer, and sincerely I pray that your heart and pen shall be guided wholly and solely by the Spirit of God. May the peace of heaven forever permiate and bless your sweet soul is the sublime wish of your devoted and affectionate lover.

(signed) John Reeve
            Hinckley, Utah


                                                                                                             Provo, Utah April 12, 1915

Mr. John Reeve
            Hinckley, Utah

Dear Brother Reeve,

There’s so many things to say if you were here. But I’m afraid I’ll get strangled if I begin spelling them into words for thoughts and feelings are deeper than all words and I’ve lived years within the last eight days – do you believe it?

You letter came today and I was not displeased to get it. Strange as it seems to me to say so, But, just as you have prophecied – I had found my own decision before it came, - And that decision was that I could meet you and promise to reciprocate the wealth of love you have endeavored to express for me. I do not see how in the face of the facts I can say this. It staggers me to do it. When I think of what is ahead, and yet I feel I will be equal to it, providing you prove yourself to be the man you have made me feel you are.

Now Bro. J.R. you have my answer. But there are provisions to be made for our future adjustments as you say it is the best for each of us. But I must come down and see for myself. Tho what I feel now tells me my visit will not cause a revision of my feelings, But point out the path to preparation for the assuming of the responsibility --! See !

You hadn’t been gone long when I knew my feelings; - A most mature and well established decision I had too and I wouldn’t have cared if you had been left by the train and found your way back! But! I see you have paid me as genuine a compliment as a noble man could pay a woman and I appreciate it! I have written by brother Albert, and of course it will be a profound surprise to him as of course it has been to me.

I’ve a story to tell you now, - But am afraid you are more of an adept at such arts than myself. Tho I greatly appreciate them. I find it difficult to produce them. I have a friend out in Granger whom I have been wanting to see for some time. Well, last Sunday afternoon I came out. She was pleased to see me and we had no sooner got into the house than she began counseling me for my experience last year. Then she stopped and looked at me and perceived I had a bigger problem on my hands than that. And she stopped and says, “Mary, what is it?” Is he married? What are you fighting it for?” Well I tried to turn her off the tract, and endeavored to appear unaffected and inferred there was nothing. She told me to sit still and imagine my consternation when she brought in an old photo of yourself and mother! And asked if that was him! I sat like one petrified! What could I do! She had known your folks in Dixie and she says, “Mary – mine was a selfish wish for you. I wanted you for mine! For Martin. But this is where you belong. And don’t you ever repent of having to put yourself in God’s hands for Him to dispose of you.” Well of course I had to talk then but it only confirmed my conviction. For strange and unusual as it all seems I had known that thing three days before, And had been happy in the knowledge of it, For I had been relying on your promise that I should know and do, now!

But, Bro J. R you understand the rest. My position in school, My desire to finish, my wish to go home, My plans for summer school. And yet new and strange as it seems, my longing to be with you, now! And as you are to be my captain from now on, I await your further orders! There! You have my position! What will Bro Lon think now? It stifles me to think of my frank confession! But that dream of yours left nothing to grope after and I think your interpretation was correct. For I can answer Yes to your propositions and feel I am prompted by God’s Spirit. Now I must close as ever.

(signed) Mary


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